No one knows how I feel right now, the pain in me, the love. For all you lovers out there I wanna congratulate you for choosing the right person that you would cherish and love forever. I liked this guy called Jordan Page since year 6 but he never felt the same about me. I never felt this way before than to anyone in my whole life and I never will feel this way again. I knew that he was the one but I guess he wasn’t ready for me. There was a song that would make me cry because of him. The song was called let it burn from usher. I asked his friend what should I do, and he said to buy him stuff that he likes but then I told him money can’t buy love. I cried 3 times a day before but I still do. I always think that he would come up to me and say I love you. I had a dream about him; the dream was…he went up to me saying that I like you and all then we went to this party, there was this girl that was really lonely. I said to him (Jordan) that he could dance with her but only one dance. The next day I found out that he was pregnant with her. I couldn’t believe what I saw, my face was staggered. He said right in front of me that he doesn’t like me, his friends asks him who does he like and his friends just keep on guessing and he just says comments about them. My friend, Kim says that to give up on him he won’t like you. But I say that I will never give up. Every thing reminds me of him? I don’t know why. I’ve been planning to give him a football, because he’s like really athletic, nice, mature…sorry going out of the subject there. In year 6 I had a collection of his stuff. I had his scissors, pen, texta and last off all his picture. I kissed it with my lip-gloss on and every day I admired it. I love it when his brown blonde hair flicks. He is the ocean; I am the sea we connect beautifully. The saying bit of let it burn is this: girl under stand, why, feel this burning in me I want to hold on to this, I know this is some thing I gotta do, but doesn’t mean I want to, what I’m trying to say is that, I love you and just feel like this, it’s coming to an end, and it’s betta for me to let it go now then hold on and hurt you, I gotta let it burn. That’s the beginning of when he’s not singing it just talking. I made 3 songs all about him. There’s this show called the o.c right and on one of the episodes it had like on thanks giving night, at the count down, 10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1. Then every ones kisses the one they truly love but I’ve been thinking that I was there all alone at the count down, but in the end I kiss nobody. Not even the one I truly love Jordan. I say crab to my friends as a like secret name for him so he won’t here what I say behind his back. I love crab so much in my heart. My heart beats slower and faster at the same time when I see his face. Why can’t him and me be whole…him and me together makes one whole. I blush every time he asks me a question and tell my friends. Haha. He says I’m weird because I cry every day for him. Every one knows that I love him but they don’t know how much I love him. There’s some thing in me that’s saying to me tell him tell him. But I know that he already knows how I feel. But it’s saying if I tell him maybe he will like me back maybe he’s just waiting for me to say it. One of my friends asked me what if he gets married and he invites me to his wedding what would I do and then I said when the paster or some thing says is there any objections I would jump up and start crying and saying how I feel about him then he would stop and think about what he deciding what he’s gonna do at that moment, continue his marriage with the woman he loves or don’t marry her and go with the person he kinda likes and had liked him since year six. He waits and thinks of what he’s gonna do and he chooses to not marry either one of us. But then at the end he wanted to talk to me, he says that he likes me since the begging he liked me but he didn’t know how to tell me. He gives me a passionate kiss and in the end we lived happily ever after. Only if that actually comes true. I told mostly all my friends that if they had a boy friend they have to come through me first and tell them if you break my friends heart you will pay and I tell my friends that to not make the same mistake as I did. Every Valentines Day I cry so much thinking about him. There’s this show called a Cinderella story and it’s really sad, after that show I went out side to my huge garden and started crying, I didn’t stop until half an hour later. I started screaming WHY DOES THIS HAVE TO BE THIS WAY!!! And I prayed to God, you know how I feel about him, wind started blowing through my face. Every thing about him I just makes me cry and realize that were not together. I can’t take my eyes off him so it’s harder for me to not cry for him. No one can feel as what I feel about him. When the wind blows through my face I know that he’s near me. I say to my self when can we be together. This guy said that he feels the same way to me as I feel to Jordan but I said ‘look I don’t like you, there’s only one person I love and that’s Jordan and that no one can feel like I feel about Jordan. There’s this girl that used to be my best friend, her name was Melisa. I asked her who would she choose: her friends or Jordan but before she didn’t like him. And she said she would pick Jordan. I asked all my other friends and they said that they would choose friends. A few weeks later I asked Melisa who would she pick first to like go out with and she said…she said Jordan. It seems that Jordan likes her because she always laughs at him and all but I asked him and his friend do you like Melisa and he said no I hate Melisa. He said if he had to choose he’d pick Melisa. When I found out that he would choose Melisa I was poring out with tears. When I see his face it’s just like ice cream with sprinkles, chocolate icing and with a cherry on top…well, actually it it’s like some thing that I always wanted in my whole life. I don’t know what I’d be without him. He’s like the missing thing in my life. I don’t know what to do. I did a love calculator thing and it said that him and me have 82 percent and to Melisa it’s 55 percent.
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Hair: blonde, brown, and short
Eyes: green, medium and adorable
Lips: smooth, big…well not that big and how can I say cute
Ears: small, sweet, and great to nibble on
Body: well let’s say that every thing about his body is good.
Name:
Pinky
Bdae:
16/12/1989
Nicks:
pinky
Skool:
KCC
Contact:
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Food:
strawberries
Drinks:
virgin PINK
Pastimes:
getting 'hayfever'.
People:
crab....*ahh...*
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People:
GEEKS, NERDS, FREAKS, JOSH M.
Things:
gee, i don't know!
Food:
brussel sprouts.
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Artist:
usher...
Song:
let it burn....
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